Whining

I feel like this is just a post of me whining but I don't really give a fuck.

I'm upset over stupid things.

I'm upset that I'm not going to go to ACTF in January.  I'm upset that my dad left to go on a cruise TODAY and I didn't get to have Thanksgiving dinner with him.  I'm upset that it feels like someone is avoiding me and I don't know why because I thought everything was cool but apparently it's not.

I'm upset because I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone to really want me, because for the last 4 years I've been told the same things over and over again "I don't think we should be seeing each other right now" or "I'm not ready for a relationship" or just flat out stopped talking to me.   The last one is what pisses me off the most though, the first two might suck for a bit but I can get over them and go on or back to being friends no problem, but to just stop talking to me with out explanation is just fucked up.

Most of all I'm upset for being upset.  I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY GOD DAMMIT.


Sorry about this post, it's rambly and short and a lot of pent up anger and emotion.  Not really what I wanted for this blog but I needed to get it out.