Tired

I'm tired.

Not just physically but emotionally as well.

I'm now working two jobs, at 40+ hours a week, and going to school full time (with finals coming up mind you) as well as being in a Sorority.

Plus the added stress of being 20 years old.

Today is the second day that I started crying as soon as I was in my truck after class.


I have no reason to be upset.

I'm healthy, I have not just one job but two, I go to a decent school, I have friends and family and a house.

But god dammit I'm not happy.

I'm primarily an introvert and to much interaction with people is tiring for me, and emotionally I can't handle it.  I need time where I can spend an entire day to myself or with one other person and just not have to think or worry or be.

These last few weeks (months?) have been the opposite.  I have been on the go and almost constantly surrounded by people.  You couple that with the fact that I have had about 3 weeks of early mornings/late nights due to responsibilities and I literally can not handle it anymore.

Not to mention the fact that I suffer from clinical depression.

I just want to sleep, and not work or have school or responsibilities of any kind.  The last time I was able to experience that was when I took a vacation and went by myself to visit friends in Seattle.  I think I might do that again in January, provided I don't go to Nebraska.