Haunted

Sometimes its seems as if I'm haunted by every past relationship I've had.

I say relationship but I should really say fling because that's all they've ever really been.  Not that we do anything really.


I can't escape them, even when they're almost two years out.  I remember practically everything that happened.

It drives me crazy.

Most of the time (99%) they don't even deserve my thoughts.

I'm sure that they don't mean to make it feel like this but I always wind up feeling used.

The worst part is, even though I know that I'm being used I let it happen.

I refuse to believe that its to much to ask for someone who wants an actual relationship with me.  Even though, most days it feels like it is.

But I refuse to regret anything.