Human Interaction

I don't do well with human interaction.
I don't do well with friends.
I don't do well with trust.
Fuck I don't even do well at life.

I have a really hard time trusting people.  Even my friends.  As much as I love them.

I can't really help it.  Being bullied for 13 years of your life, most of those bullies having been people I thought to be friends.

Friends tease each other, I get that but because of the bullying by so called 'friends'  I can't handle people making jokes at my expense.  I take them personally.  I know I shouldn't but I can't help it.

I also just don't know how to talk to people anymore.  It doesn't help that I'm paranoid that everybody is staring at me, judging me.  I know that its irrational but I can't help it.

I just want to be able to talk to people with out feeling stupid.  I want to not prefer my bed to society.  I want to be able to trust people.  This is probably my problem with ALL types of relationships.