Big Decision

I need a break.

I need  a break from feeling sad all of the time.  I'm tired of feeling like I'm worthless and like there is no future for me.  I'm tired of feeling like I'm not good enough, and worrying about things that I don't need to worry about yet.

I am also just literally tired.  I'm not getting sleep at night because my anxiety keeps acting up which makes it hard to fall asleep which means I'm tired through out the day which makes me fall asleep with out meaning to which means I have a hard time falling asleep again.  Even if I do make it through the day without taking a nap I still can't fall asleep at night, no matter how tired I am.

My anxiety is getting worse.  My depression isn't lightening up.  I don't need this to affect my grades any more then it has been.

I need this to stop.

I'm thinking pretty seriously about going back to see a psychiatrist, and if prompted going back on medication.


As much as I don't want to, because the idea of being reliant on medication is terrifying (also I don't like how they made me feel the last time I was on them),  I think that right now it would be what is best for me.


I'm not sure yet.