I do not hold grudges.
I don't. It may seem like I do sometimes but I don't.
I just don't forgive people easily. Especially those who I trusted.
See, I have certain issues. Mainly with trust. I have been stabbed in the back too many times in my life by people I thought were friends, people I trusted. So I don't trust quickly, sometimes at all.
If you happen to be a person that I trust, consider it to be a very lucky and rare thing.
I have tried, in recent years, to trust people more. Trust them to care for me, trust them to not hurt me, trust them to not lie to me. Sometimes it has worked for me. I have gained some amazing relationships from doing this. Unfortunately the majority of the time it has come back and bit me in the ass.
I do not keep my trust issues a secret. Not anymore. I'm generally up front with people, possible romantic interests in particular because I want them to know what their getting into.
First people have to earn my trust, which is normal for pretty much everyone. It just might take a little longer with me. Once you have it, you must never break it because my trust is not something that can be fixed, ever.
So I do not hold grudges, but if I trusted you and you knew about my issues with trust...then chances are I wont forgive you. I don't give second chances.
